My Secrets
I use to be such a goodie good
But things changed me
I used to be picked on by my family..
My brothers and sister thought it would be funny to hit,push,beat,and burn me
Trust me it wasnt what a 4 year old should go through
I always put on a fake smile..i went to church to hide my pain
I would go to clubs and youth events to avoid going home..
In 6th grade i fell into a deep depresson
I took my ate my pain away..was picked on all in middle school
Dad was never there he was too busy with other families
But he would always come back..and demand respect
But how could i respect a man who fucked over my mom..my blood
I took my anger from my dad and took it out on myself
Id scream into my pillow at night and cut myself in day light
The trouble for a 12 year old..fucked up right
Was always beaten on and treated like i was a mistake
Started doing drugs at 14..went down the wrong path im not proud of
Was treated like shit for the color of my skin which made me crazy
Starting doing spice which fucked up my thinking
Id blackout for taking too much id forget what had happen
Started to hear voices..
When one day i found out i was blessed with a baby boy…but the drugs and myself took him away before i could change
It fucked me up even more and i told no one of what happened.
Not even a year later on spice lost my baby girl without knowing….
Realized this shit was destroying me but couldnt stop because it made me forget the pain but it would always come back
At this point im out of my parents house..but things went wrong so i had to move back’
One of the worst things i could do…..
THINGS I MISSES
Dad left and got married got cancer is it bad that out of 100% i only care 7%
Lost my virginity too young’
Bisexual and Pan sexual and Polygamous
My kids are in heaven mommy loves you <333
Theres more but i dont feel like writing any questions message me <3
No hate stop child abuse and bulling make the world a better place…
I wrote this mostly for my boyfriend he knows why <333
